Ground Rules:

The first player of this game starts with the topic "Five Weird Habits of Me" and people who get tagged need to write a Xanga entry about their 5 weird habits, as well as state this rule clearly.  In the end, you need to choose the next 5 people to be tagged and list their names.  Don't forget to leave a comment in their Xanga that says "You are Tagged!" and tell them to read yours.

Numero Uno.  When no one else is around, I like to blast my music and just dance to it.  It doesn't matter what kind of music it is, I just blast it and jam it downnnnnnnnnn.

Numero Dos.  I am a very nervous person and I always twist my hair or stick my tongue out, especially when I am concentrating on something.  People notice and tell me how weird it looks, haha.

Numero Tres.  I am obsessed with taking pictures of myself when I have nothing else to do.  It's not that I'm conceited, but I love pictures, and I always want to find the "perfect" picture of me, and of course never succeed.  I guess it makes me feel like a model, haha.

Numero Cuatro.  Speaking of obsessed, I also tend to get obsessed with a song and listen to it 5 million times on repeat on my iTunes.  I'll listen to the song until I know every word, every chord, every beat... and then I'll move onto another one. 

Numero Cinco.  When I get bored I like to draw houseplans.  I'm one of the only people I know who does that, and I'm fascinated by architecture.  I've probably cut down a whole rainforest for the amount of paper I've used for houseplans, ooooooops.

Okay now that I sound like a huge loser, I am tagging-- DANNI, NICOLE, KIM, KELLIE, and JOE-- I choose to tag you guys. 

I'm home.  Hooray. 

My accident ticket was dismissed today.  In 30 minutes.  Goodbye, ticket.  Hello, increase in insurance

I had a fun night.  Ate dinner and just hung out with my family after I got home, then headed to Lumberton and hung out with Roy, Mark, Ricky, Shane, and Jason.  We went to Pembroke to hang out with Dan, Ron, Kirk, and some people at Dan's apartment.  It was fun but yea time flies when you are having fun.  I didn't get home until after 3 am!   Haha.

I think this is going to be a good month.  there's some people who I'm dying to see, and then others that I barely even know but can't wait to get to know them.  And in 18 days I'm taking my first plane trip to New York to visit Craig and Derek (who has now transferred) and all the other Yorkies.  Haha.  I'm excited, true.

Grades have already been posted.  Well some of them.  I'm still waiting on two classes, but heres how the verdict lies so far:  Education 200 (B+), Education 200 Lab (C), Psychology 105 (C), English 205 (B-).  Now I'm waiting on Communications 110, which should be an A, and Biology 105, which will hopefully be a B or a B-.    Not the most outstanding grades in the world, but a hell of a lot better than last year's mistakes, I think you could agree.  My mom is proud and to tell the truth so am I.  Changes are being made, I just have to be persistive and keep doing better.  I'm only three semesters done, you know.  AT LEAST five more to go! 

Diets still pretty good.  Woohoo.  That's some good news I guess.

I WANT SNOW!!!

CONGRATULATIONS to JOSEPH BUTLER for getting his license and his new car!  Woohoo!!!  Being sixteen rocks haha (wow that was forever ago for me!)

hoooooooooooooooooooooooray for new friends!

It's been a LONG, hectic week of studying, getting work done, and minimal sleep.  BUT, I did it-- and I'm finally done for the semester!

I'm worn out too.  That's why it will be nice to go home tomorrow after my court hearing.  Sigh.  I don't wanna have to get up at 8:00 for that one but I suppose I have to.  After that I'll be home from Dec. 9 until Dec. 28, when I leave at 5:00 am for New York!  I'll be there until about 10:00 am on Jan. 3, when I'm returning home.  Then I'll be back home until I return to school on Jan. 10.  So I'll be home for a total of 3 or so weeks over break.  Make the most of it, fuckers. 

I'll be working Sunday at Pizza Hut at home, which is good news.  Only bad thing is-- I'll be delivery driving instead of serving this holiday season.  Oh joy.  My favorite job-- not.  But it's a job and I'll be getting some money over Christmas, which is definitely nice. I'll also be getting my last paycheck from the Phonathon on Dec. 15, and never again will I have to go there ever again!  I'm excited, haha.  Hopefully I'll be working at SOME Pizza Hut in the area next semester, as a server too.  Keep your fingers crossed. 

Still holding out... probably a mistake but I don't care.  Something out there has to work out someday. 

Well, you're just across the street
Looks a mile to my feet
I want to go to you
Funny how I'm nervous still
I've always been the easy kill
I guess I always will

Could it be that everything goes 'round by chance? (chance?)
Or only one way that it was always meant to be (be)
You kill me, you always know the perfect thing to say (hey hey, hey hey)
I know what I should do, but I just can't walk away

I can picture your face well
From the bar in my hotel
I wish I'd go to you
I pick up put down the phone
Like your favorite Heatmeiser song goes
It's just like being alone

Oh God, please don't tell me this has been in vain (vain)
I need answers for what all the waiting I've done means (means)
You kill me, you've got some nerve, but can't face your mistakes (hey hey, hey hey)
I know what I should do, but I just can't turn away

So go on love
Leave while there's still hope for escape
Got to take what you can these days
There's so much ahead
So much regret
I know what you want to say
(Know what you want to say)
I know it but can't help feeling differently
I loved you, and I should have said it
But tell me just what has it ever meant

I can't help it baby, this is who I am (am)
Sorry, but I can't just go turn off how I feel (feel)
You kill me, you build me up, but just to watch me break (hey hey, hey hey)
I know what I should do, but I just can't walk away

Kill by Jimmy Eat World

So the weekend is over already.  And now, only four days left until it is time to go home for Christmas vacation.  I'll be returning to Wilmington on January 10, so I'll have a month and a day at home  (minus the 6 days at New Years when I'll be in New York!)

The rest of the week was spent making up work, studying, breathing from all the stress of finals week, and actually having my first exam on Saturday.  It went pretty well, the easiest Psychology test I've had in the whole class so hopefully thats a good sign.  That night Adam and Shakirah visited me from State.  Hopefully they had a great time, I know I did-- we hung out with Derek, Briana, Phil, Will, Nick, Luke, Katie, Caitlin, Dustin, etc.  A party we went to ended up having a fight and a guy get shot so that was... exciting (not really because I was scared to death!)  and finally we ended up passing out at Will's in the wee hours of the morning, as usual haha.

I have to finish my English paper tonight, hopefully revise the one I got a not-so-hott grade on, and thats pretty much it.  No more exams until Thursday so I'm ecstatic about that!

It's nice to know that I was able to open up to someone who I never thought I would open up to.  It feels nice to know that I have a friend who will listen to me regardless of judgement or bias and to know that in the end they will still be my friend.  How many of those friends out there do you really have?  I don't think that many.

I've also decided on a roommate for next year and I am very happy in the choice.  I think we will get along perfectly and living together will be great for both of us.  Now we just need to find a third roommate so the apartment rent is a little cheaper, haha!

I'm just so confused about so much right now.  I'm still struggling to find myself and find those around me who I truly love and care for.  As for one person out there, I'm not sure what is happening right now but I just wish we'd talk more.  I'm content with how things are but I just want to know that you still care, that you still see something in me.  It sucks because almost every close feeling I've ever had for someone has turned out to be a lie or a mistake, it makes your outlook on any future relationships very grave and pessimistic.  Speeding into the relationship too quickly is probably the reason why hardly anything has worked out for me, but I still want to know that I make someone happy one day, that someone cares for me and that I will unconditionally care for them.  Time and time again I've thought thats been the case, and it hasn't.  I'm just hoping and praying that this time isn't going to turn up like the rest of them.  I need something good and constant in my life since it has so many problems, and somehow I still think that you could be the person to do that for me.  Maybe I'm wrong?  But I'd like to think I'm right this time.

Now that I've spilled my heart out, maybe I'll actually work on my English paper.  Probably not though.  I mean hey, a college student can definitely utilize 12 hours to his or her advantage

could it be that everything goes round by chance?

or only one way that it was always meant to be?

you kill me-- you always know the perfect thing to say,

i know what i should do, but i just can't walk away...

My mom just ordered my IPod Nano online!!   It's 4 GB (holds about 1,000 songs) and black.  And I got a startup kit.  Hollerrrrrr.  Sadly, I don't get it until Christmas.  But it's nice to know I'm getting something nice!

The past few days have been hard.  Lots of work since its the last week of classes.  And boy did I (and do I) have a lot of catching up to do!  I got everything for education squared away, except for my final book report, which is extended until Friday, and the final exam in there.  I also have an English paper to write tonight since the rough draft is due tomorrow at 12:30.  Sheesh.  I also have a Psychology exam on Saturday that I desperately need to study for and do well on! 

my schedule over the next few days--

Thursday-   11:00- LAST BIOLOGY CLASS!

                      12:30- LAST ENGLISH CLASS! 

                       (Done with Fall 05 classes at UNCW!)

                       5:30-  Work.  Yuck.

Friday-       12:00- Lunch with Jen Poe.

                       1:00-??? study for the rest of the day for Psychology!  Its a free day!

Saturday-    3:00-  Psychology Final Exam

                       6:00-  Adam, Shakirah, and Derek arrive to party it down at the dub!

Sunday-       Study and work on my final english paper.

Monday-    11:00-  Final English paper due in my professor's mailbox.

                       5:00-  Work.  Yuck.

                       Study.

Tuesday-    5:00- LAST DAY OF WORK AT THE PHONATHON FOREVER!

                      Study.

Wednesday- 7:00-  Final Commerative Speech in Public Speaking

                       Study.

Thursday-   8:00-  Education Final Exam.

                       11:30-  Biology Final Exam.

                       DONE WITH THE FALL 05 SEMESTER AT UNCW!

Friday-       9:00-  Court date for my Accident

                      12:00-  Heading HOME FOR THE HOLIDAYS